Monday 25 July 2011

Part Four

I’ve realized recently though, with the help of my counselor, my editor, my dad, and my online friends, that I am good at talking. Whether it’s blagging a fiver from my dad, landing interviews and writing jobs that I’m completely under-qualified for, boldly attempting (although often failing) to chat up girls, or selling double glazing for Zenith - I can talk. I can lie.

Accepting this, I don’t feel my ego swelling or my heart sinking with the usual disapproving resentment of such arrogant self-aggrandizing. I feel proud.

I can do the things I want to do with this skill, such as it is. I can live on the continent; I can apply for jobs, chat up girls, sell my own personal brand and feel completely at ease with myself. Just the thought makes me feel happy. I don’t want to die when I imagine this, I want to live.

So it’s time to do it, I’ve found what might make me happy and so I’ll leave. I want to wake up when I want, sit in a quirky French café and write on my laptop. I want to harass the girl at the counter for her phone number in my broken French and smile even when she declines, and I want to blag my way into the biggest and best situations imaginable. Why would I do anything I don’t want to do? Because “life isn’t fair sometimes”? Bollocks, life can’t be summed up some second-rate quote from a straight-to-DVD drama; it’s too vast to comprehend and too small to waste.

16 comments:

  1. congrats for your blog, it's really creative and interesting. +followed

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  2. Well said, talking is the key to everything and if you;ve got the gift for it then you shouldnt be afraid to get into any social event! Hope you live your dreams and ambitions

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  3. I hope you get to do all that. The art of talking is useful indeed, unfortunately my skills in it are quite limited. I'm waiting for more details regarding this plan.

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  4. so you should try being a writer! i thnik you can be good at it ;)

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  5. This I can relate to :) I think the art of conversation is quite a good skill to have

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  6. looking from the other parts to this, its great man

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  7. Lying and the general art of manipulation is a useful ability. But don't overabuse it

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  8. Being able to talk to anyone is a great skill not everybody has. I find it great, and useful. There is no reason not to.

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  9. i admire your strength of character! and very nice and original blog. +follow

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  10. Shit son, are you me? I stopped hoping I could ever find a human being to relate to and I clicked on your blog and fuckin' blam. I read a few of your entries and my mind is blown. I wish I dared to be as open in my blog as you are.

    Consider yourself followed.

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  11. I've had that quirky cafe laptop fantasy too for quite some time. Oh well.

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  12. Being persuasive can be a truly amazing gift, cherish it :D

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  13. How things have gone lately? Keep us posted!

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  14. Hey guys,thanks for all the feedback. I'm visiting a friend this weekend but will be posting again on Monday evening/Tuesday morning :)

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  15. You realize something about yourself that will allow you to create opportunities in the near future. Keep it going, seriously, and you can do whatever you need to in order to ensure happiness!

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  16. Really creative blog you have going on here

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